My buff and blue heart aches for you, Gallaudet

I am in pain.
I want to cry.
Really want to cry.

My heart and mind are three thousand miles away at
800 Florida Avenue, NE
Washington, D.C. 20002-3695

My soul is at Gallaudet University
My thoughts are with the scared students
With the faculty and staff risking their careers
With the alumni who are there now

My head hurts.
My heart hurts.

I lie here
Stunned
Appalled
Shocked
Confused
Puzzled
Discombobulated
Saddened
Hurt
Upset

Two questions keep running through my mind over and over:
How the hell did we get to this point???
How can the administration and Board of Trustees deny and ignore this???

I love Gallaudet too much to allow this to happen.
I feel so helpless stuck out here in California.
Writing letters doesn’t seem to be enough.
Blogging for the Bay Area doesn’t seem to be enough.
Working with the NorCal GUAA chapter doesn’t seem to be enough.
Donating money doesn’t seem to be enough.
Brainstorming and talking with people doesn’t seem to be enough.
But I love Gallaudet too much to idly stand by and do nothing.

I am in pain.
I want to cry.
Really want to cry.

Jenny Cantrell 10/8/06